my own sister,my bestest fren of all.
i tot she noes me the best.
but i guess im wrong.
she said im juz using her.
im hurt by dat.
very hurt.
im alone in my room now, crying.
crying out loud.
i feel so left out.
im gg to c a doc tmr.
i juz vomitted. theres blood in it.
n my right eye...theres smthn in it....
n sm how its covering my vision...
my right eye is blur.haiz..
agaknyer da nak mati tak??
takpelah...no one cares bout me anw....
im reali hurt rite now.
i cant control myself.
da words my sis said juz keep playing in my mind.
and im hurt by dat.
i reali tot she noes me best.
wenever shah is werkin night shift, i alwaes asked her to sleep with me....
i alwaes told her dat im scared to sleep alone...
But my true reason is i wanna spend time wif her...
i wan us to be close...
juz like we use to....
share stuffs and all.
but she misunderstood me....
now she dont even talk to me bout anything.
no secrets, no girls' talk, nuthin at all.
i love her so much. i do care for her....
tapi knape dier tergamak ckp gitu dgn me....
im so hurt.
i care about her future.
i dont want her to be like me.....
i reali dont.
dats y im so angry wen i heard she wanna quit sch and go to a private sch...
coz i noe it will ruin her future....
To my dear sis,
i hope u are happy with ur life.
i do care for you.
i love you so much...
i juz dont want u to end up like me...
o'levels is not easy.
i hope you will suceed in life.
u will alwaes be my lil sis and my bestest fren.
and i will give u all da support u ever need.
even wen i dont show it.
i do care.
take care baby girl.......